In one simple moment my world was shattered in to a mess of pieces.  Day by day I pick up the pieces and try to put them back together.  Only to find that it will never be the same!  The pieces will not fit correctly, and I am lost, in my own world.  Too scared to ask for help.  Too afraid to find my way out.  Too angry to forget the past.  Too lonely to stay this way.  That moment has passed and the world still spins, and I still try to find a way to put my life back in order.  

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After 15 years, I continued my previous statement...

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The world will never be whole to me again.  When it shattered pieces were lost, and at times I lose myself.  I have changed.  The way I look at things has changed.  I found goodness in the world that was never there before.  I found goodness in myself that I failed to see.  I found compassion in others that I never noticed.  But it took time to get here.  I made a choice to live.  You did not have a choice when your child died.  But you have a choice of what to do with your life.  There will always be a time that you need to grieve for your child.  But there is also going to be a time to grow and enjoy your life.  Try to find peace for this day.  
~J Stiles~